Few days ago Mary started crying before bed and it turned into one of her crying spells (last a while and hard to stop, she has been doing this since 3 weeks old and not sure the colic ever stopped!). After 10 minutes she tells me "mom it is a bad dream and it keeps happening, I can not tell you, you will cry" and she goes on "it hurts my brain"...so slowly she tells me..."mom you and dad and Johnny and me were there"..."there was a stranger" (Ok now I get nervous)..."yes we were in a store" (after I make lots of guesses)...now I ask more questions as I worry "what happened"..."mom it was the girl and the bubble blower", now I know what she is talking about. Weeks ago we went to Toy R Us to spend her bday $ and a mom was yelling really loud and mean at her lil girl (about 3 y/o) and grabbed her over her shoulder and yelled fine you can't have the bubble blower cuz you are bad and never listen and the mom threw the bubble blower on the shelf and the lil girl was crying so bad. It was a sad sight and didn't realize she noticed. Instead she noticed and it has stayed with her and made her sad ;( After we talked and I figured out what had her crying, she says "mom I just wanna go to heaven, cuz you won't see bad things like that there"...this broke my heart, my poor girl has such a sensitive heart, like her momma. At the Dr. for well check Tuesday Dr. told Mary to tell mom/dad when she sees or hears things that make her sad so she can let it go b/c if you keep it inside it will explode. Bittersweet, my lil girl has strong empathy for others, but it often hurts her?!
Mommy LOVES you Mary Rose just like you are, God made you perfect! XO
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